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2014. A New Kind of Training

My training has always been synonymous with racing.  I train for a race.  During training I push my fitness to new levels, I endure hard workouts and I change my body.

2014 is bringing a new kind of training for me.  The year I am training to slow down.  I am training my mind to listen to my body.

Why?   

Coming back from Mauritius and India I was hit with some serious jet lag and then some physical issues.  My Crohn’s flared terribly, my body was exhausted and I just didn’t feel right.  So I did exactly the opposite of what I normally do … I slowed down.  I rested a lot, I ran minimal miles and I focused on the holidays with my family.  It was glorious.

And then a crazy thing happened.  I had a miscarriage.  Although sad, a miscarriage for me is actually a pretty remarkable thing because I had no idea that I could get pregnant.  For my entire life I have had low estrogen, I am only able to have a regular cycle with hormone enhancement.  In order to have the Gs I went through IVF.   A miscarriage is actually a very wonderful sign.  (I promise to share my IVF journey with you one day)

No I didn’t see it that way right away, I’ve spent some time pretty sad about this lost miracle but I am picking myself up and looking at the positive.  33 years into life my body has figured out how to function normally.  Whats more, I now know how much I truly want to have another baby.  If you had asked me that a few months ago I would have awkwardly said “Um, yes eventually”.  The prospect of another IVF round was not something I looked forward to, but now I am sure.  I’m reveling in the changes and looking forward to adding # 3.

During some of my sad days I was talking to a dear dear friend of mine and she had a mind-blowing thing to say … She told me to look at this time as training.  Training to grow our family.

What a beautiful thought.  What a fantastic concept.

Before the thought that I was training, I was feeling awkward in my own skin.  My body feels different, my fitness has changed and strogen brings a whole host of newness to my world!  It feels weird.  I feel that I am defined by my strength and my fitness.  And maybe I am, but this new training brings focus to a new kind of strength a new kind of fitness.

So here I am, entering 2014 with a new kind of training.  A slow and deliberate training that I pray will lead to miraculous things.

I share this with all of you because there will be some changes around here, less running … more cross training and likely a healthy dose of emotional writing.  (Did I mention that estrogen is a wild ride?!)

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25 thoughts on “2014. A New Kind of Training

  1. Gia, this was such a beautiful post. As I sit here, with tears in my eyes, I am so happy for you and your family and all the exciting things a new baby will bring to you. You are one of the strongest people I know. Wishing you, your husband and your adorable little G’s nothing but the best this year!

  2. Wishing you the best in 2014 and looking forward to hearing about your journey to add #3 to your family. It is great that something positive is going to come out of this experience. Take care.

  3. I’m so sorry for your loss, but so excited for you and your family to grow! I love the idea of thinking of this time as training to grow your family. I wish you guys all the best.

  4. I am so sorry to hear about your miscarriage but am happy to hear of this miracle for you guys. I relate to this issue to an extent. No IVF here, but a couple of miscarriages, low estrogen/hormone stuff and 2.5 years of trying for our first baby who came 18 months ago. I will be following your journey here as you go into this experience for number 3 with an open heart. Cheers!
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  5. I just wanted to heart on this post. Firstly for sharing, because I know it is a hard thing to go through and it is brave of you to put it out there. (I actually wish more women would, because it would help us all find the right words for something so personal, but so common, but that’s a post for a different day), and secondly for the emotional, hormonal rollercoaster you are going through – such a strange feeling to think that something “in future” suddenly becomes “right now”. Hugs and love to you. :)
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  6. Thanks for sharing, Gia! I am actually on the same training plan for 2014, although I will be training for my first baby, not my third :).

    Best of luck and I look forward to following along.

  7. Oh Gia! This post resonated so very greatly in my heart. I am so thankful for your healthy perspective on all of it. The great loss associated with miscarriage (we have a history of miscarriage as well) as well as the great hope associated of what might come. Along with that, your perspective on training encourages my heart so greatly. I am struggling with this pregnancy and not being able to do the things I did prior to pregnancy. It has been harder than I ever thought to give in to my inability to go and do and push and _____(whatever that might be). Thank you for reminding me that life requires balance and we can’t have it all in every season. I just want to have my whole heart through it all and not lose myself to comparison or fear. Hugs from San Diego!

  8. I can TOTALLY relate! I was told in my early 20′s that I wasn’t capable of conceiving because I didn’t ovulate. At 29, I found out I was pregnant by having a chemical miscarriage. To me, that was just confirmation that the doctors were wrong and I COULD actually get pregnant! It took 5 more years for me to get prego again, but I did last July/August. It ended up being ectopic and my left tube burst and I ended up in surgery, but again, it was confirmation to me that it WILL happen one day. I’m still struggling with it – especially since hearing 16 (and counting) pregnancy announcements SINCE September when my loss occurred, but I’m still having hope. I’ll be praying for you and your #3.
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  9. OMG, I am visiting for the first time and I already love your blog. This is a pretty brave post and what an amazing gift to find out you can get pregnant naturally. I am on a sort of the same journey right now to slow down and just nurture myself. The past two years have been rough and sometimes it is necessary to just slow down.
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